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Complex scfii%

I awoke one day

To find my place

In my life 

Had gained a space

A hole once not

A spot once filled

But something came

Along and killed

The trust once there

The love once growing

Now it's empty 

And all that's showing

Is the worn out grooves

Where it once had sat

This thing you can't

Label this or that

Because it was 

Your very life

You fought real hard

To keep your wife

You forgave the things

Some said do not

You took the arrows

And slings they shot

You took the times

She called you names

But they dug in deep

And played head games

Like you aren't enough

You ain't what you think

And don't come near me

Your breath it stinks

That was the easy 

Stuff to take

But the secrets and lies

You couldn't shake

You found out late

Like two years after

But she wouldn't talk

And you heard the laughter

They said let it go

It's in the past

But it's in your mind

And there it lasts

It's not some feeling

You just let go

You hurt so bad 

And you want to know

Why she did it

When she knew before

That this will tear you 

At your deepest core

You made it through 

That time intact

Just on the outside

When inside was racked

With doubts of self

And am I bad 

To the point I could lose

All that I had

And why this fellow

Why this guy

Why did she pick

Please tell me why

25 years

Not all so good

But I stuck it out

Just like I should

She said she loved me

She said she cared

She said our children 

Was what we shared

We had this dream

Hers not quite mine

But we lived with the other

Things seemed just fine

But she left you quick 

Because of this app called book

She didn't like 

The girls you'd look

And make your friend

And talk too much 

But you never would meet

You never would touch

You did these things 

Because down the hall

Was a wife with hate

And she gave you all

She said you were stupid

She said you were wrong

She talked to you down

Always this song

So you turned to a place

Where some called you smart

You said "this is different" 

And that was a start. 

Meanwhile the rejections

At home did proceed

You had no clue 

And your heart did bleed

She left you when 

You left to be 

A son to your father 

No regrets you would see

And you got along great

As you helped out your dad

You wondered why your marriage 

Turned out so so bad

But single you were 

And a dad you remained

So you did all you could 

With each dollar you gained

Then one day a person

Comes by with a gift

As you reached for it you thought

Could this cause a rift? 

It revealed a sad secret

The betrayal was big

And the grave was much deeper 

Than one person could dig

It was your wife and a man

You knew once before 

And that tells you he's special 

As he walked through your door

No match for the man 

Who once stole your wife

And he did it again 

And it crushes your life

You must let it go

The bridge you must burn

No counseling no friends

Will say it's her turn

She had it before 

And blamed it on stress 

And you know it is true

Because it couldn't be less

But the words she did share 

When the act did come true

Was don't take it personal

I never meant to hurt you 

But you did 

Don't you see

You did it a lot 

The hurt was on me

You ruined us so easy 

You tore us apart 

If you are friends with my Girl

And you can see the start

Tell her to call

Don't ignore me please talk

We can do it right here

We can just take a walk

But no was the answer 

And the police got a call

Why did you do this 

Why make me fall

It's ironed out now today

It's better to forgive

You can't burn with hate

It's no way to live

So a history you have

Years stacked upon years

And laughs don't forget

They are found between tears. 

It's not all so bad

And our spirits are stronger

And we hurt each other no more

We will do that no longer

We've grown and it's deep

Complicated is life

She is always my friend

Wether or not she's my wife.