Tangents, Points, Views, and Opinions- A look into my mind

I find a journal is much like a replacement for a friend who cannot or will not listen. Like that friend who will sit and hear you out and remember exactly what you said. Maybe after a long talk to this friend I can come away with a better understanding of what exactly I'm going through. What maybe I should do, if anything. This kind of friend is priceless because you can go back to him later and he'll tell you exactly what you said, what you were feeling, the questions you asked, everything that you expressed on that specific day. Some of the conversations are sad, some are happy, some are introspective, some angry, and some confused. Almost always I feel better to some degree after finishing our one way talk.
   It's probably different for each owner of a journal because we all have our reasons for using one. They document a point in time in our life. They allow the needed release of pent up feelings or emotions.
   With me, I feel misunderstood at so many times in my life. Because of this, I rarely express deep or introspective thoughts to those I am around or associate with. My wife knows I'm peculiar or shall I say I'm not not like many around me in how my mind works and thinks. I think on things that many could or would care less about. There is a running joke that my favorite category on Jeopardy is "things only I know" for a thousand Alex. My views on religion or spirituality seem to fit no dogma or set way of thinking that can be put into a collective. I have managed to avoid believing what someone has told me to believe only because they say so. I say this regarding spirituality and religion.
    If left to my own devices politically I know I'd get it wrong, but my opinions and influences are molding me into a more independent thinker than someone who thinks or acts based on what a leader says.
    I believe we are all individualized expressions of God and we actually belong to no collective intellectually. Maybe we do based on our place of birth, our skin color, our weight, our education, our religion or our profession. We tend to gravitate towards people who look, act, or think as we do. I don't see that as what so many generalize as "racism" because racism is not a catch all phrase for someone to throw out there if someone whose melanin is a different shade does something we don't like. Not everything is racial and I wish the ignorant of this world would stop trying to manipulate others who are ignorant into believing this is the case. If anything, that in itself perpetuates ignorance.
   Intellect is of it's own and it demands freedom and liberty to grow separately from other individuals own intellect. You cannot loan someone your intellect. What they have is theirs alone and they alone are responsible for it. By intellect, I mean those thoughts and feelings we have on things regarding the world around us and our relation to it. Furthermore, it's relation to us.
    I listen to AM radio and it is mostly political information. But in that political dialogue is a rationale in a belief on the purpose of the individual and society. I mean as far as me and my neighbor, it's our own morals and desires that guide how we act.
How we tolerate their behavior or assist them when they are in need. How we as humans are autonomous and seek our own fulfillment. God gives us that right as far as what we desire does not impede or affect another to do the same. We must understand that it is not the right of the individual to demand anything from another be it monetary, physical, or emotional in order to benefit themselves or another. It is by choice that we should give of ourselves and I believe the current systems of governance around the world are removing that desire from each of us by forcing us to give and in turn causing us to simultaeneously depend on and despise our government. Government is heartless and unfeeling yet it claims to care for us. Ironically run by humans, these humans tend to lose their humanity while in it's service. It dulls humanity and those who become a vehicle of it's growth remind me of vampires who were once human and compassionate. But once bitten, they are infected by it's powerful trance. I believe very much in the individual and his ability to govern himself.  If the individual deviates and affects anothers right to be, then they are dealt with by the whole. Much like antibodies attack a virus.
   Government is like mold on bread. A little and it won't hurt you. Hell, it may even help. But too much and it over takes the entire loaf and becomes worthless and harmful. It grows when left to itself and it imposes it's will upon the whole loaf. It uses something that was once a slice of bread with purpose to into something that serves only to make it larger. The slice being the individual.
The musings here were but a random train of thoughts I poured upon my keyboard. I apologize if it appears disconnected and without direction. But t the very least, it may give you some insight into the mind of the individual who's posts you are reading.