Sometimes when you feel all alone you really are all alone. I mean inside your head. Misunderstood. Not related to. You sit in a room wanting to state your case and your feelings but you know you have said it over and over and like a gallon of milk it expires and grows sour. If the people you plead your case to just ain’t hearing it or understanding it after you express it for lets say the 10th or 20th time then what makes you think your thoughts will be valid today in this attempt?
I mean its who you are. You feel this way. It’s not right.. It’s not wrong..
It’s you. It’s how you feel. It is your life experience. But you hear “It’s not always about you.” That is a fair statement. Because it isn’t always about you. But you feel like you have never been heard. Or appreciated. Or understood..
Yeah, you are a flawed individual. You f up. You do selfish things. You know you are wrong probably more than you are right. But on the other side, you tolerate a lot. A whole lot. You let a lot slide.. but you don’t forget it. You hold on to it. Because it tells you who the people you hang with are. It lets you know what you are willing to suffer for. But the people you associate with don’t see it like that. They eventually see it like business as usual. This is how things are supposed to or gonna be. The behavior perpetuates itself and what you think you tolerate becomes the way people normally deal with you. Here is your reality that deep inside you had hopes would change. You can’t expect change from what you have outwardly accepted as the norm.
You are perceived as being one way when actually you are very much so the opposite. A person seeking respect and unable to receive it. Because that is not the foundation you laid. You laid a foundation as anot a forgiving and tolerant person but instead a person with no back bone and ability to be honest with himself and others because this is the standard you set.You get what you deserve. Not what you give. You can give of yourself til you are fully depleted and all that says is you didn’t budget your giving properly and now there are those who expected and are not getting and it s your fault.
It is your fault.
The reason people don’t get you is not their problem. It’s your issue to deal with because you portray yourself as one way and feel very different beneath the surface while you scream to be understood and give them nothing but the surface to understand. There fore you are a closet fake. A person claiming to be real but by all accounts is fake to himself to and others. So the key is to know yourself. Love that person you know and if you don’t you fix that (easier said than done) and then express that person 24 / 7. Don’t act like you are forgiving when you hold grudges and keep score. Don’t act like you are generous and then throw your actions in everyone’s face. Don’t act humble and then beat your chest about it. You need to take a good hard look at who you really are. That “alone’’ feeling is Ben more real than you realize because you don’t even know yourself at times so you can take yourself out of the equation as well. It’s a frustrating thing to be your own best friend and not even be sure if your best friend knows you well enough to have your back.
You can not survive expecting to find your satisfaction in this life outside of yourself. You will almost always disappoint those whose opinions you value.. YOU MUST UNDERSTAND IT ISNT THE JOB OF THE WORLD TO LOVE AND GET YOU.
That is your job.
Stop pleading for a room of people to get you.
Get yourself.
Love that person.
I mean its who you are. You feel this way. It’s not right.. It’s not wrong..
It’s you. It’s how you feel. It is your life experience. But you hear “It’s not always about you.” That is a fair statement. Because it isn’t always about you. But you feel like you have never been heard. Or appreciated. Or understood..
Yeah, you are a flawed individual. You f up. You do selfish things. You know you are wrong probably more than you are right. But on the other side, you tolerate a lot. A whole lot. You let a lot slide.. but you don’t forget it. You hold on to it. Because it tells you who the people you hang with are. It lets you know what you are willing to suffer for. But the people you associate with don’t see it like that. They eventually see it like business as usual. This is how things are supposed to or gonna be. The behavior perpetuates itself and what you think you tolerate becomes the way people normally deal with you. Here is your reality that deep inside you had hopes would change. You can’t expect change from what you have outwardly accepted as the norm.
You are perceived as being one way when actually you are very much so the opposite. A person seeking respect and unable to receive it. Because that is not the foundation you laid. You laid a foundation as anot a forgiving and tolerant person but instead a person with no back bone and ability to be honest with himself and others because this is the standard you set.You get what you deserve. Not what you give. You can give of yourself til you are fully depleted and all that says is you didn’t budget your giving properly and now there are those who expected and are not getting and it s your fault.
It is your fault.
The reason people don’t get you is not their problem. It’s your issue to deal with because you portray yourself as one way and feel very different beneath the surface while you scream to be understood and give them nothing but the surface to understand. There fore you are a closet fake. A person claiming to be real but by all accounts is fake to himself to and others. So the key is to know yourself. Love that person you know and if you don’t you fix that (easier said than done) and then express that person 24 / 7. Don’t act like you are forgiving when you hold grudges and keep score. Don’t act like you are generous and then throw your actions in everyone’s face. Don’t act humble and then beat your chest about it. You need to take a good hard look at who you really are. That “alone’’ feeling is Ben more real than you realize because you don’t even know yourself at times so you can take yourself out of the equation as well. It’s a frustrating thing to be your own best friend and not even be sure if your best friend knows you well enough to have your back.
You can not survive expecting to find your satisfaction in this life outside of yourself. You will almost always disappoint those whose opinions you value.. YOU MUST UNDERSTAND IT ISNT THE JOB OF THE WORLD TO LOVE AND GET YOU.
That is your job.
Stop pleading for a room of people to get you.
Get yourself.
Love that person.
